Where'm I gonna live When I get home? (The garage I guess)
My old man's throwed out everything I own. (Not that I had much anyway)
He meant what he said When he wished I was dead. (I already feel dead)
So Where'm I gonna live When I get home? (the car maybe)
I knew our road was gettin' kinda rocky. (gotta love those rocky times)
He said I was gettin' way too cocky. (well with him I got to put him in his place)
He waited 'til I was gone. (so he could have the house to himself)
He packed from dusk 'til dawn. (couldn't get rid of me fast enough eh)
So Where'm I gonna live When I get home? (the beach but i might get too wet)
Where'm I gonna live When I get home? (gawd knows a cardboard box)
My old man's throwed out everything I own. (well he has kept most of it to himself gee whizz)
He meant what he said When he wished I was dead. (I told ya once I feel dead from working butt of)
So Where'm I gonna live When I get home? (stop asking I don't know)
He decided he would keep my cat. (good I hated that cat anyway)
My transportation, I wouldn't be a needin' that. (never used it as walked everywhere)
He kept my TV. (yeh lazy sod can watch sports now)
The bills he gave to me. (so he could live like a king gee thanks honey)
So Where'm I gonna live When I get home? (the football field)
Where'm I gonna live When I get home? (the marshes maybe but might be too cold)
My old man's throwed out everything I own. (hehe less for me to take with me anyway)
He meant what she said When he wished I was dead. (gee how many times did he wish I was dead)
So Where'm I gonna live When I get home? (I don't know)
Where'm I gonna live when I get home? (the zoo maybe)
Where'm I gonna live when I get home? (the pick up truck instead but he took it away)
Where'm I gonna live Where'm I gonna live
Where'm I gonna live when I get home? (i'd rather live in my home though)
Sunday, 11 November 2007
Saturday, 10 November 2007
I hate moving LOL
I have been on the go solidly past few days packing stuff and throwing stuff out..
I've had moments where i've felt like going on strike, purely from where i've ached in places I never knew I could ache. But we are getting there slowly, it's the wrapping and boxing that seems to be taking the longest. Tomorrow I throw out my old bedstand I said i'd sleep on the floor on the better mattress, its one thing less to throw when we move up north. I also root through the kitchen cupboards to see what we need and don't need. It means more boxing and more throwing out. We have a 2nd skip coming on monday i'm predicting to be honest in all we will need another skip after this one.
Yesterday after many years of promising, my mom showed me a picture of my twin sister. It is the only one she ever had of her. I didn't know what to think or feel, my mom always promised me when she felt I was ready she would show me what she looked like. It was a moment of deep thought part of me always wondered what she looked like. I was happy and sort of sad at the same time. Gee looked like Julia as a baby, was like looking at a double. I'm sad my sister never experienced the joy of life, but I know she passed so I could live we were always told I had the spirit and determination of two people not one, I guess she gave me her strength to keep fighting all these years. I'm still in deep thought about it all, I wish I could share that with Carl. I don't know if he remembers me ever saying I had a twin. It hasn't upset me seeing my twin Juila but I don't know what to think or feel about finally being showed. She looked perfect, I can still picture her black hair on her head.
In three days time it would also have been my parents 31st anniversary, and moving from this house means last remaining memory of any ties to Dad are gone. I'm feeling a little sad on that.
Someone is talking about me tonight I have hot ears, laughs oh well.
Also spoke to Carl last night for thirty minutes he sounded so happy to hear from me, he text me and perked right up when he heard my voice. He was being super mushy on phone last night and yahoo too before that. Really suprised with him lately. He had call while on phone to me and instead of turning off volume to me he left it running, sat chatting away and then eplained the convo to me once hung up. Was sat going why does he do that it's a first for me. After he said shall I tell them i'm busy at work so I can carry on talking to you, I really don't want to pick them up. He was asking me what to do, I went honey you pick them up as you'll feel guilty if you don't he said yeh that true...promised he'd text when he finished but never did. Mind you I was asleep within minutes of getting off the phone. Guess he knew I was tired
well that's all folks!!!!!!!!!!!
I've had moments where i've felt like going on strike, purely from where i've ached in places I never knew I could ache. But we are getting there slowly, it's the wrapping and boxing that seems to be taking the longest. Tomorrow I throw out my old bedstand I said i'd sleep on the floor on the better mattress, its one thing less to throw when we move up north. I also root through the kitchen cupboards to see what we need and don't need. It means more boxing and more throwing out. We have a 2nd skip coming on monday i'm predicting to be honest in all we will need another skip after this one.
Yesterday after many years of promising, my mom showed me a picture of my twin sister. It is the only one she ever had of her. I didn't know what to think or feel, my mom always promised me when she felt I was ready she would show me what she looked like. It was a moment of deep thought part of me always wondered what she looked like. I was happy and sort of sad at the same time. Gee looked like Julia as a baby, was like looking at a double. I'm sad my sister never experienced the joy of life, but I know she passed so I could live we were always told I had the spirit and determination of two people not one, I guess she gave me her strength to keep fighting all these years. I'm still in deep thought about it all, I wish I could share that with Carl. I don't know if he remembers me ever saying I had a twin. It hasn't upset me seeing my twin Juila but I don't know what to think or feel about finally being showed. She looked perfect, I can still picture her black hair on her head.
In three days time it would also have been my parents 31st anniversary, and moving from this house means last remaining memory of any ties to Dad are gone. I'm feeling a little sad on that.
Someone is talking about me tonight I have hot ears, laughs oh well.
Also spoke to Carl last night for thirty minutes he sounded so happy to hear from me, he text me and perked right up when he heard my voice. He was being super mushy on phone last night and yahoo too before that. Really suprised with him lately. He had call while on phone to me and instead of turning off volume to me he left it running, sat chatting away and then eplained the convo to me once hung up. Was sat going why does he do that it's a first for me. After he said shall I tell them i'm busy at work so I can carry on talking to you, I really don't want to pick them up. He was asking me what to do, I went honey you pick them up as you'll feel guilty if you don't he said yeh that true...promised he'd text when he finished but never did. Mind you I was asleep within minutes of getting off the phone. Guess he knew I was tired
well that's all folks!!!!!!!!!!!
Thursday, 1 November 2007
Today is the 1st November weird one
Today is the first of november wow this year has gone past so quick...
We got offered two places mom accepted the cottage, not 100% sure when we start the move. I'm nervous but excited.
I don't really want to write t his blog i'm tired and in a sad mood. Mom and dad anniversary coming up. I miss Carl beyond beleif, I can't even call him, he never comes online anymore sighs unhappily. I feel like i'm single even though i'm not......
Thats all folks
We got offered two places mom accepted the cottage, not 100% sure when we start the move. I'm nervous but excited.
I don't really want to write t his blog i'm tired and in a sad mood. Mom and dad anniversary coming up. I miss Carl beyond beleif, I can't even call him, he never comes online anymore sighs unhappily. I feel like i'm single even though i'm not......
Thats all folks
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