It's official I've left the nursing course as of July the 7th. I lasted nine months which i'm proud of but terribly sad to leave the course. I worked for three years to get the experience I needed but at least I know it was worth it. The end was coming due to many events in the last nine months I guess somehow I knew it was inevitable that I would leave at somepoint. The forthcoming move is the main one and the final pushing point as soon as I heard we were moving my fate was sealed.
As few of you know my Mum got diagnosed with bipolar disorder within weeks of me starting the course. I am one of the main carers alongside my brothers during the course I remained my Mum's advocate in all things financial and emotional (I did volunteer work as a Mental Health Advocate for 8 months). The other swaying factor was my house got flooded and we were in limbo for about 2 and a bit months with all the redecorating and moving between hotels. It messed with my stability I lost track with the coursework and was never able to catch up.
My origional plan was to intermit (restart a particular module by back tracking sixth months). In a way I'm glad I didn't as it would've been pointless with the move now.
Some will probably ask why didn't you try and stay and complete the course. Well my responce to that is I'm swimming in debts financially trying to keep the family afloat with my bursery. Plus with the income I have there is no way I could stay in student accomadation it's too expensice. And lastly it's a fresh start the move has been due so long. I could never be so far away from my family they are too important to me.
I've decided I'm going to sign back on with jobseekers and hunt for a caring job in the lincolshire area for when we move. If in a years time things are still settled I might apply to a local university and restart the course fingers crossed. I'm tired of making life plans I had so many plans and thoughts when I started the course I was so sure I'd complete it. Guess I was wrong. It was the first time in years I'd satdown and thought of my future. I've learnt once again not to make plans anymore just to experience what life has to offer.
Who knows what my future holds but I await with anticipation at the new horizon.
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