Same old

Lets see Hmm today has been interesting.

First I woke up to find out that we full on complete on house monday (delays with poststrike postponed bits)
Then I learn I had been forgotten about when mum brought everyone a cake except me. And my whole family sat and rubbed my face in it. Ha last time i do anything for them shows how much i'm appreciated. >=0( Sod them all.
My mum been in a foul mood all day brothers keep demanding stuff off her lifts for stuff and money for bits and pick up middle brothers girlfreind. And she has the audacity to take it out on ME i'm starting to seriousy get pised off with this sort of crap. It's not me demanding lifts here there and everywhere. It's not me borrowing money left right and centre.
What do I do.
Then I find out my middle brother has tried to accuse me of going in my mums room while she was away. Firstly I NEVER EVER go into my mums room unless she asks or needs me to find something. Secondly I went in there one time to get her pillow for Rux as a familiar smell. Little shit went upstairs on a daily basis amount of times i found mums bedroom door open. I kept shutting it. GRRRRRRRRRRRRR me my mother and my youngest brother have caught middle brother numerous occassons of times going through ours and mums bedroom. The excuse is "i'm looking for a DVD"
Last but not least my mom even tried to say she didnt believe either of us until I told her point blank it wasnt me and she knows when I'm lying.
I just feel like i've been taken for granted, taken for a mug, a fool. I'm the one she turns too when she Fucks off abroad or on a break. She knows me so well enough to know I totally respect her privacy and her domain for privacy is her bedroom. Likewise with everyone in the house I don't go in their bedrooms if I need something I ask or knock before hand.
Once I spoke it through with my mum she was fine after that. But i'm sure if she continues the playing me off with my brother i'll be having it out with HER. Yes she may be my mother but this playing us off against eachother is stirring the shit up. It's a new thing for her and I don't know why or what the fuck is possessing her to behave in such a rediculous manner. It's childish and unbecoming of her. She acused me of being sarcastic today and I was messing about. Many of you know me for my dry wit at the best of times. So I just said im joking. Her reply don't joke with me" WTF I'm not allowed to joke or be myself. I feel like crying I'm so desperate to get away from this negative attitude im tired of this shit and have nowhere to go. =0(. She can drive to her fiancee's. Middle bro can go to his gf youngest bro can go to his mates. Where have I got NOWHERE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


I apologise for my language which is rare for me but I'm speaking my mind and when i speak my mind when i'm angry or sad bad language comes out.