2 more days till Christmas.
Wows and what a speedy week, I haven't even wrapped the presents up yet.
Today has been a weird one for me I woke up after 6 hours sleep last night stayed awake for a few hours and then slept some more. I was emotionally tired I cried four hours straight over Carl after hearing some news. It left me in serious doubts of even trusting him again, I've decided to give him the benefit of my doubt. Because I know he is struggling in real now and hoping it was a serious brain fart on his behalf.
Never thought in a day I could have such upheaval in my emotions which I normally keep in check and let nothing phase me. Not today thought I've cried more in one day than in past year alone scary as heck and all over Carl ugh.
I finally after constant calls and texts since he uses a website daily, I've decided to email him asking what is going on and why he won't talk to me. Many who know him and me are shocked and angered by his behavior toward me especially I'm lost and confused myself. Last time we spoke everything was fine no signs of any untoward behavior or change in his attitude.
I know if he continues his behaviour he will loose some great friendships. Most of them my close Friends too and they've known him alot longer than me. I don't want him loosing the friends he has, I love him and wouldn't wish this on anyone. I'm praying he responds back it gonna be hurtful trying to explain that even my last option gained no response. Then I'm dreading the outcome of that one if it comes to that.
That's all i guess
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