I hurt so much.. I had an astma attack this morning. Since then shoulders and sides hurt like crazy. I havn't had one in so long I feel like I gone ten rounds with someone hitting my shoulders and top of chest. Can barely find energy to move. I just bushwacked. My brothers expected me to go walking for 2 hours all round for baccy in wind and rain alone as darkness fell, I was refusing kept pestering, when ya going to shop? I can barely move round the house let alone outside. It was an effort to even stand and cook dinner, I knew I was coming down ill and the day I thought bout how I felt rough is day it kicks off.
Carl was furious at my brothers for expecting me to out in bad weather alone, I didn't let him know how bad I was this mornign. He would kick by butt for not resting, he worries too much.
He let me bitvh about m brothers, I rarely moan bout them but today they got to me. I'm too tired of this shit they all pull when moms away. I'm exausted soo damn exausted feel like ive drained every ounce of energy just to keep oing. Realy i been housesiting for pretty much months solid, dang so many have said i do too much. I've physically run self to gorund specilly after some good friends letting me know I can't do it all myself. Guess so many kno me too well. they almos snse when i run down it scres me becuse i deny it. I can't tongitj.
where i'm that tired the ghosts are actign up big time.
I onna have to stop the blog befpre o [ass pit tryimg tp tupe im sdrooping off here.
Yhats all fols
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